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Lessons from the Big House Big Heart 10K

I ran a 10K yesterday at the Big House, right before HMCC's 15th year celebration--it was an INCREDIBLE run because I feel like God was speaking to me about my life as I was running.

Here's what I mean:

I was in awe and shock when I finished my 6.2 miles, because I have been extremely unfaithful with training leading up to the race. Despite my failure to be disciplined on a daily basis, I felt like I was given this supernatural strength to run til the finish and not give up. Because of that, I ran hard and ended up cutting about 20 minutes off of my time from June (crazy, I know).

I think the 10 kilometers I ran yesterday greatly resembles my journey of following after Jesus.

If you ask me about what has helped me to grow in my faith, I can give you a handful of HUGE commitments I've made in the past couple years--like participating in a summer missions project, serving in LIFEgroup ministry, or staying in Michigan post-graduation. But despite these sizeable decisions I make once or twice a year, I have been extremely unfaithful on a day-to-day basis. When I think about all the ways I have failed to exercise FAITH in my life CONSISTENTLY day after day, I wonder how the heck I haven't fallen away or stopped being a Christian and following Christ. Falling away is a constant concern and huge fear in my life, but whenever I think about it, I am amazed by GOD'S GRACE that never lets me go, no matter how emotional, unstable, or fickle IIIIIIIIII can get about living my life for Christ.

If Christianity was all about what I do (a works-based religion), I would have quit many years ago. I'm so thankful for how God used the 10K to remind me that his GRACE is SUFFICIENT for me, and that it is ONLY BY HIS GRACE that I am still running this race and keeping the faith (2 Timothy 4:7). NOT because of how faithful I have been in my daily disciplines, or sizeable commitments I've made to follow Jesus. Lord THANK YOU for never letting me go, and giving me the grace to persevere and never give up.

"Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us, fixing our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of faith. For the joy set before him he endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God." -Hebrews 12:1-2

My great cloud of witnesses 
The "holy shizz this was completely a God-thing" pose upon finish :)

Comments

Katie said…
:) great reflection!

what were you listening to? =P
October 12, 2011 at 11:31 AM
Eric Yee said…
that's such a "chariots of fire" pose. that had to be somewhere in the playlist...or an old school boy band singalong tune...or a hillsong track...or "walk it out" =)
October 18, 2011 at 1:56 AM
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