When you listen to a song, which sticks out to you--the lyrics, or the beat/tune/melody?
I've always found it difficult to discern the meaning of songs (yet alone discern what people are even saying) when listening to music. I know this is very odd for someone my age, but I don't even listen to music. I like driving my car in silence, jogging without earbuds, and doing work without distractions. Sooooo... when I DO stumble across a song I actually like, it means a lot.
Here are the words to a song by Sanctus Real called "Til I Got to Know You"--it was played during one of the videos at Easter and I found out about it on a friend's blog afterwards..
I tried perfecting myself
Would You love me more without my mistakes?
I tried not to ask for Your help
'Cause I didn't want to scare You away
Yeah, I was always worried
I was gonna let You down
Oh, it felt like I was standing
In between the lost and found
'Til I got to know You, You
I was at a place when You found a way
To break through, it's true
I was just a skeptic 'til I got to know You, You
And it's hard accepting Your grace
In a world where nothing's free
For so long I was afraid
That You'd only see the worst in me
Yeah, I was always worried
You were gonna figure out
That I wasn't what You wanted
Wasn't worth being around
This song rings true to me because it captures the insecurities I have, not just as a human being relative to other human beings, but in my relationship with God too. I was always worried no one would want me if they REALLY knew who I was inside--I had heard that Jesus's love for me was unconditional and unchanging, but doubted it all inside.
It wasn't until I confessed word-by-word, image-by-image, e-v-e-r-y big aND little sin in my life that I was no longer a skeptic. God didn't shun me or reject me because of my mistakes or failures, but actually wanted me still. That honest time of repentance at the TC summit a year ago marked a breakthrough in understanding God's love for me. God help me to feel the depth of my sinfulness and be broken before you again..
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