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Delirious

delirious (adj): marked by uncontrollable excitement or emotion; ecstatic; filled with an inexpressible and glorious joy (1 peter 1:8); me

I don't think I had a personal relationship with God until 2 weeks ago.

There have been a lot of formative moments and experiences in the past 6 years of me considering the existence of a higher-being, 3 yrs of being a Christian, 1 year of living by faith, 6 months of serving on church leadership, 1 month of dire circumstances, each of which have been challenged and supported by specific instances in my life.*

But it's only been 2 weeks of finding pure joy, satisfaction, and freedom in Christ (alone). Though it's been 6 years since I first stepped into a church building and 3 years since I accepted Christ, I was always afraid to admit that I didn't know what grace, freedom, repentance, or Jesus meant--in terms other than the ones I had heard or read--it was always a theory and never a reality in my own life. After years of doing church (going, reading, praying, seeking), I couldn't fess up to say that I didn't actually know God. But here it is: I didn't understand the concept of pure repentance or the role of Jesus in my life (not just God) until 2 weeks ago.

I've been trying to share this amazing realization of experiencing God's promises first-hand for the first time in my life, constantly left speechless and delirious for this inexpressible joy I can personally testify to now. I haven't found the most efficient way to share all the fine details in the depth which God deserves the glory for. But if you're discouraged right now about your ministry, family, future, or even your own relationship with God, I hope you can tell from my insufficient words above that God is real, active, and living amongst us.

Ask me about anything if any of what I'm saying sounds vague or unclear, as I would absolutely love to boast about God all the more! PRAISE THE LORD JESUS for this inexpressible joy, freedom, and satisfaction :)

-NY


*Key words of formative experiences in the past six years of seeking God (feel free to ask me about these): Paramus High girls basketball team, menstrual cycle, Purpose Driven Life, Barnes & Noble, PCNJ, college life, HMCC, Sigma Zeta Delta, LCG, Experiencing Membership, Necto, Xanga, reoccuring dreams, smoking, Community Summer Missions Project, career idols, Unilever, Team Community, Leadership Team, BBA, Google, lifegroup

Comments

Chris said…
Not gonna lie. Kinda jealous :). You're gonna need to share that with me sometime. Hahaha
lisa said…
NAYOUNGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YESSS
jenny said…
can't wait to catch up buddy
minhee said…
awesome :)
Jean said…
Nayoung Is not young any more haha. Look at that long list of experience there! God LOVES you! Hahahaha! I'm happy for you! Tell me everything!

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