Where sin runs deep, your grace is more

This year of LIFEgroup was hard. So ridiculously hard.

It is by God's grace that we didn't give up. And if there's one thing I'm taking away from Core, it's that--the power in commitment and persevering, even when it's hard.

It was hard not only to keep the faith in the midst of our own lives, but hard to love one another. To forgive one another when we say things insensitively, to be honest with one another despite the risk of judgment, to give each other the benefit of the doubt at times when we're hurt.

It's hard to keep the faith in our trying moments of academic probation, unemployment, and family issues--but it's a whole 'nother level of investment to care for, maintain, and pour out our lives into relationships. Relationships that never even existed prior to being placed into the same LG--that takes faith.

Core, thanks for sticking with your commitment to love and invest in one another.

Thanks for showing ME immense patience and forgiveness at times when I said things insensitively, cowardly stayed away from touchy topics, forgot to pick you up (heh), and/or didn't reciprocate the affection you showed me. I've never realized my shortcomings as much as I have with this group, but I'm thankful--because where sin increased, grace increased all the more (Romans 5:20).

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