Search me, O God, and know my heart! Test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there be any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting! - Psalm 139:23-24As excited as I am to finally live out my calling as a college student affairs professional, I have to admit that I have been concerned about the pay involved with my career switch. Part of me knows that my dignity and worth are not defined by my salary, but the practical side of me wonders if I can make it with a reduced salary in a city with a higher cost of living.
Last night as I confessed these concerns, God reminded me of a prayer I've lifted up continuously throughout this past year. A prayer inviting God to do whatever it takes for me to depend on Him, knowing how prone I am to live an independent and self-sufficient life.
Even though I still have questions of how things will work out practically, I am assured that God's heart is not to hurt me or make me suffer, but to help me. Help me not to live this life apart from Him, but clinging on to him.
Keep falsehood and lies far from me; give me neither poverty nor riches, but give me only my daily bread. Otherwise, I may have too much and disown you and say, ‘Who is the Lord?’ Or I may become poor and steal, and so dishonor the name of my God. - Proverbs 30:8-9
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