As I close out a big chapter

I should have posted this a couple weeks ago--but here it is, my thoughts closing out this year's LIFEgroup.

Freefall, it has been an immense privilege to be invited into your lives, to be entrusted to lead and shepherd this group despite my lack of innate shepherding abilities. I'm thankful for the undeserving patience and grace many of you have shown to me in my cowardly moments of fear or awkwardness or lack of emotion :P

Thanks for loving me just as I am, with my fears, flaws, and failures, not only as a leader but as an individual. It's hard to find communities like this where we can be free to be ourselves, and loved (not just tolerated) for who we are.

Our church has a strong culture of discipleship and mentoring, so take advantage of it--GET DISCIPLED, and start making disciples! I didn't really know what I was doing either but all you gotta do is follow Christ, and invite others to follow you (1 Cor. 11:1). If you're not sure what that means, let's talk before you/I leave!

The past five years of serving on our church's leadership have been the most CRAZY and eye-opening years of my life. Who would have thunk that leadership was more about servanthood and followership than anything else

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