Live Out Loud

Is it wrong for me to actually be enjoying the BBA program? Junior year in the business school was hard, with internship recruiting practically being another three-credit class, and group meetings for projects filled in every hour of your day. But to be frank, I came to LOVE my life as a BBA this year, largely due to the relationships that were built AS a RESULT of these sicknasty group projects. LAST YEAR, I had zero friends in the bschool, aside from the few that I had known prior. I LOVE my buds from all the project groups, the same 60 faces that I see in my section, the same five faces that I see at every interview.. which even culminated to my new involvement on the exec board for the BBA Marketing Club next year. I'm really excited to be serving on leadership for the Mkt Club especially because these five other seniors on the eboard are all people that I know, but never even interacted with. I LOVE BUILDING RELATIONSHIPS, and I LOVE THAT THEY'RE SO DIFFERENT FROM ME. I lo...

God can change even the hardest of hearts. For weeks, I was in denial. I wrestled with God and didn't want it to be true. I didn't pray because I knew what I was supposed to do, but didn't want to hear what He wanted to say. (FYI: Intentionally not praying when you need to make decisions is just about the dumbest thing you can do). To be completely honest, I secretly hoped that my parents would refuse to sign the consent form (messed up, I know). If anything, through this painful decision-making process, I realized how messed up and manipulative I could be.. Even when I refused and turned away, I knew deep inside what to do. Not the dream internship that I had worked towards, but what I really desired for the coming summer was to learn to love Jesus more and experience His love for me more--so much that I would no longer need to rely on the securities of this world--not a dream job, nor approval from my peers. I'm trusting and believing with (oh so little) faith that ev...

What did 2008 mean for me? The year of a surprisingly awesome summer in Chicago interning at Leo Burnett , the entrance into the dreaded Junior year at the business school, with corporate presentations every week and constant visits to career counselors and communication consultants in effort to perfect every bit of the recruiting process, from my resume to cover letters to interviewing skills. Also the year that I realized different and good were not mutually exclusive things (ie: JCrew small group last year), and I really learned what it means to have a missional mindset on and off the court. To be frank, I don’t remember what the first half of 2008 was like, largely because I moved on to a new journal in the second half of the year. But what I do remember doing for months is asking God for a greater heart for His lost people, for my heart to break at the sight of those who do not know Christ—and mostly for my own family members. Something about not spending eternity in heaven with m...

To dream that you are smoking, indicates that you are trying to shield yourself and others against your emotions. You have trouble letting others in.

As some of you know, I recently unofficially adopted "Jamie" as my American name, mainly because I felt that my Korean name was a hindrance to meeting new people (especially in my classes). So when I started working at Leo Burnett, I introduced myself as Jamie to all the fellow interns. But because all of my legal forms still said Nayoung, I ended up introducing myself as Nayoung to my co-workers in the Hallmark account, so somehow I ended up with two different names at LB. In all honesty, I have to admit that I hated blending in and getting lost in the sea of Christinas, Sarahs, and Kellys. It just didn't seem the same when I introduced myself as "Jamie like a Jingle" rather than "Nayoung like a Nail clipper" (in an icebreaker). I miss my old name, and I miss how I was the only Nayoung that anyone ever knew. I am slowly learning to embrace my uniqueness, and not being ashamed of it. It's a constant struggle, but I am finally accepting and loving m...

It's a bit embarrassing to admit now as a college junior, but I am still a teeny-bopper at heart. Yesterday, I found out that Jesse McCartney aka the "Beautiful Soul" everyone was obsessed with 3 summers ago, the cute guy from Summerland, and the former member of DREAM STREET, was IN THE SAME BUILDING AS ME, GIVING A PRIVATE CONCERT. WHAT THE HECK. So my workplace has these things called Artist in Residence where they have random artists come in to perform for us. They told us that many of these performances are low-key and that we usually won't find out about them until the of--but clearly EVERYONE here knew about it except for me. My fellow interns casually brought it up in a meeting and I started FREAKING out at the thought that I could have met him/had him serenade me in person! GOSH. No one thought I would be interested, considering that most of the people who went to see him were 8-12 year old children whose parents work at Leo Burnett. AHHHHHHHHH!!! So after wo...

"Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified, do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go." - Joshua 1:9 Another Truth from today's Bible Study: God is bigger than man. So who are you fearing more? More lengthy post to come.